Lifted Moment 5: A New Encounter

Hey everybody, Its Reggie. There are times when negativity and negative thoughts cross my mind. Most of my of my negativity centers around work. Were it breeds like mice in a grain silo. It starts with one thought from one person and that creates another It becomes very easy to be sucked into the frenzy state of being and its only goes downhill from there. Anxiety, stress and physical pain start to manifest themselves. Physical complaints start flowing. As an example of this, Saturday after working very long Friday night prior. I began to experience a pain. The pain began at the sole of my foot and moved up numbing my calf. After an hour or so of complaining to myself and others, building and generating more discomfort as the evening progressed. My mind filled with anxiety and stress of what to do? Worry? And feelings of disguise. My mind started to list everything I was feeling (thinking). Snowballing the very painful leg cramps, into everything I hated about my job, everything I hated about people, every fucked up excuse why is my life is the way it is. This discomfort lasted all night and into Sunday morning. Upon waking I felt exusted, phyicaly drained. I felt I had ran two marathons back to back. My limbs were like jello barley able to lift my head from the pillow, let alone put any weight on the leg. I felt helpless and alone. And in that moment, as I lie their in bed, I began to wonder what was happening? I Asking myself, Is this pain real? Where does this pain come from? How can I rid myself of this discomfort? I started to meditate and used this mantra for the moment. "I am perfect the way God created me". Shortly after in about 20 minutes, the pain began to subside. I was able to bring myself to attention and I started the morning with a walk for a cup of coffee. (this always brings me joy) Than a visit to the tanning salon where I gain the peace and serinety I wish to see in everyone. In that warm and tranquil mediative sun bliss, and for the next 15 minutes I began the same mantra for the day "I am perfect the way God created me". I returned home to take a quick shower and off to work. Late, I was. But with no physical pain. How was that possible? I believe by letting go and letting God was a big transition for the mysterious disappearance of pain. By letting God decide the rest of the day, I surrendered all attempts to control the external world ridding myself of my physical pain. On arriving to work my newly found spirit greeted everyone with wonderment and blessings. I hope this story has been insightful.

Namaste
Reggie